Okay I know it's late and yes I'm being creepy right now. I was stalking some profiles and blogs. My last stalk was to Elaine's blog cause I know her blog posts are one book of essays and I wanted to focus on what she was writing. There were 2 posts were about me. Well it was during my I don't know what stupid phase is that called. Anyways, I was reading and actually laughing and thinking about it cause she thought I left her. That mother of pig need slaps from me. I know this is a late reaction but yeah. I always give late reaction. Haha
Well, first, yes you were right about the me being very angry, moody and overly sensitive part. I can't explain why I was like that. Mostly maybe because of that beloved school of mine, Isaac, the homeworks and the stress at home. I can really make a very huge negative impact on someone when I'm being the dark side of me. Maybe you don't know that some of the times in my life, I can be very heartless, cold, mean, angry and every possible negative energy that you can find. Not only to you but to everyone.
It's not easy to pull me back together and you know only I, myself can bring me back together. But that doesn't mean I don't care about you or you are losing me. You know how loyal I am. I don't tell everything to anyone except you. You know every single detail in every chapter of my book. I even told you my deepest darkest secret. I even let you read my diary, you idiot. What makes you think that I'll tell other people more than you do. I won't let a boy come into our way. We're like inseparable. I know I'm a pain in the ass but hey, you know you love me. Haha
Point is whatever happens between us, be honest. I will be too. We can't hide anything from each other cause we both know judging is just apart of us and we don't judge each other. I know I have my flaws. I'm trying to improve now and then. I'm growing and it's not easy to throw my old habits away. I'm still gonna be emotional pain in the ass someday somehow and I know you'll always have my back. Even if I'm at my lowest and you need someone to comfort, I'm here. I might not respond to it as you want but I listen. You know I listen.
Whenever happy and sad moments I have, you always have my back. I might not did as much as you did but I never leave permanently. You are my sister, my soulmate, my bestfriend, my whole life and most importantly my family. Who on earth will ever get to replace this bitch in my life? Nobody. And it's not that I don't tell you stuffs, sometimes I rather just leave it in the back of my mind. I don't tell anyone at all. Oh gosh, I sounded familiar. Eff.
My mind always seem to conquer everything. I'm an Aquarius, what to do? I piss people off and I'm always at my worst but hey, I know who's still gonna stay throughout all these craps and still loves me for who I am. There's just one part of me that nobody will ever understand, I'm telling you now cause I don't know how to explain to you. So if this so called other side of me comes back again, you'll know what to do. We settle it together and don't go crying to your babi cause it's not fair! If there's a problem between us, we'll settle it with ourselves. Okay?
I know sometimes it's hard to understand me. I just don't know how to explain especially when it comes to feelings and stuffs. I suck in that. Haha and I really can be a very bad friend to you.
One thing that will never change,
Love you bitch, you know that. Forever.
