"Let every cell in your body know and feel that you are loved. Allah loves you. Many people love you. You are surrounded by love and caring. The love is all around you like warm light, comforting you, taking away all your pain."
Since I've been terribly bad to myself, I'm starting to change all my goals. Change myself. Change how I react to people. He taught me about changing. I chose to be different because I know I am. I strongly believe that I am one of a kind and cute. Haha. Yes I need to start focusing on myself. Change everything. Life is not treating me well because I don't let life to change who I am. The little petty imperfect me. Opening all the chakras inside of me and letting all the positive energy absorb to every single cell in my body.
I am loved. I chose to be at peace. I chose to be beautiful and successful. I chose to be alone but surrounded by people that supports me. People that will never doubt or question my ability. I know some of them sees the good in me beyond all the bad. I chose to open my mind and visualize things as I want it to be. I am a great writer. A journalist in making. Why? Because I believe in myself. Negatives people can fuck the hell off outta my life.
I'll be spending my free times meditating and seeing things that will help me be happy,peaceful and successful both in relationships and career. My main goal is to get a good result and get into the college and finally pursue what I love the most. I am a born leader. I am my own inspiration and I am my own happiness. This time, no one or anything will stop me. No more distractions, no more heartaches. I am myself. I am awesome.
Admittedly I am never the best person. How am I expecting someone to love me when I fail to love myself? Disappointments brings me down everyday from the people who are unworthy of my time and space in my life. The desperation of wanting to be happy and peace. The heartache in me is excruciating. Other than being emotionally ruptured and taken for granted, I am no longer that person. Yesterday is history. The next time I look myself in the mirror, I'm gonna see that strong girl that I know that's been in me all the time. I don't need anyone to tell me what I can't do.
Now everyday, I will compliment myself and regain my confidence. Be the person I know I can be and should be. I'm gonna make myself proud and everyone else who thinks that I will not survive. I know who I am. I am different. I will shine. Watch me.
Here, I wanna thank a few people that were there during the worst of me and still see what I am capable of.
Elaine, Yuen Ling, Naim and Hakim :)
Thank you.
