I'm Walking Away. End.

So is this how you are gonna treat me throughout this so called routine? I knew I lost you then. But is this how you are going to punish me for it? Yeah I'm seeing it as a punishment. I'm trying you know? I'm trying so  hard. I miss you so bad that I'm just so helpless. Cause I watch you come and go this whole week. I don't wanna say anything cause I don't think you'll care. What am I supposed to do? Just sit there and be there for you all the time while you are having the time of your life?

I know I make mistakes. I know I do. A lot of it. Yes I snap. Yes I can be a control freak. If you can't handle me at my worst, why are you even worth of my time? I have to admit, I feel special around you. Somehow I knew it's gonna end. It's my fault. My fault cause I ruined all of this. Ruined and it hurts me so bad cause for a second I thought that I fell in love with our friendship. I guess forevers are not for me. He'll find someone better. He'll find someone who gives him peace instead of pain.

It's excruciating. The agony. What else can I do? What am I supposed to do when all these idiotic pain controls my mind? My mind is everything. Now I know. Nobody can enter my mind. If they enter my mind apparently they'll enter my heart too. I won't let anyone to be in my mind anymore. I'm done. I'm so done. I'm so fucking done. I'm ending everything. I'm ending the connection. I'm ending the routines. Sadly, I'm ending you. I'm no longer that girl in his eyes. Somehow he turned out to be like everyone else. Those typical judgemental general common human being. 

Guess I'm the only one walking South now since you changed your direction back to North.