Mistakes and Life

Don't you feel tired all the time? Making mistakes over and over again. Just wanting to get things right for once. Not messing up anything that comes in your life. Having people around you but not knowing who are the ones are real and fake. What does it feels like to hurt someone instead of getting hurt?

Everyone knows I'm just too nice to do that to anyone. But being nice, where did it brought me? What do I get? Forever ending up hurting myself. Or is it that I never learn enough? Or never learn at all? It's just how my mind works. Asking a whole bunch of questions and expecting someone to answer it.

Isn't it funny to see someone dying to get your attention but you never want them in your life? And you are dying to get someone else attention and never getting them either. Is it ironic or just how the circle of life goes? The way I see it, nothing is worth the risk if you dont wanna get hurt but not taking risks will not get you anywhere too.

Maybe taking risks for the right person and knowing that person is somehow worth it would pay off? Yes I know, it's never easy. But that feeling when you found the perfect one, your soulmate, your everything. Somehow everything just turns around and you finally see how life is. The way that person don't even have to try to make you undeniably happy.

Or maybe I was too busy finding the right one, the perfect and the unexpected one never had a chance to step in my life. Not all the right ones will always stay right and someone that would mean the world to you could be now somebody you used to know. I think my mind is so messed up that I've been simply typing craps here.

Anyways, I know I'm right about few things. That I will always have my best friend (Elaine) with me and hopefully my heart is finally right about him too. Cause I know he's just different from all of them. And I'll always be right about myself. Just being me will bring the right ones in my life. Yeah. Just be myself and everyone will love me as I am.

Life would be much more easier, don't you think?