Being isolated in our own family is probably the worst feeling ever. Haven't talked to my dad for months. Mom,she is another one that won't give me any help. I feel so annoyed. Yet I feel so sad. Sometimes I have a feeling that life loves to mess around with me. People will think I'm crazy because of my unpredictable mood swings.
You can call me emo or desperate. But you will never know how it feels like to be in my position. Till when I can count on my friends? Till when I can count on the one that makes me happy will be there when I need him? It's all impossible. 1st, friends are not always there for me. 2nd, that person is not even mine in the 1st place. I can't expect anything from anyone.
Always on my own. Sometimes I feel that I lose the reason to smile or to care. I feel so neglected. Would it kill for someone to say, hey thanks for being there for me. Would it kill to have someone to like you as much as you like them? I always feel like I'm not good enough. Why? I feel so outta place. So insecure of everything.
The only thing I can do is tearing up myself in the room and walk out like nothing happened.
" All I need is you and I. I can't take one more sleepless night. All by myself. "
