Just Another Day

Honestly, I don't have a perfect mood to find anybody now. I hate to be alone but now I want to be alone. Just letting my mind run itself. I miss him so much. But I'm just gonna hide everything to myself. I just realized that I'm the type that if I'm happy, everyone around me is happy and when I'm sad, I'll suffer alone.

It's funny how one person can change your mood so fast and made you day every bit more interesting. It's even funny when he's not even mine. The need of wanting to go and invade his mind just to know what is he thinking is making me so desperate. My days are so quite without him.

I've been dreaming about him for far too long now. It's just time to let it be. I just don't wanna give myself hope. I don't wanna be the one trying, hoping and in the end hurting. I don't want to be the one chasing for someone. I'm done being that part. I wanna know how it feels like to be chased. To have someone who put their schedule away just to make time for me.

I guess I haven't found him yet. Or never will. I've been waiting too long. Sometimes I want someone to be there and tell me everything will be alright. Why can't I be the one that's special to someone? To be the one that he can't live without. When will that day come? To have him to be by my side when I need him the most.

Sigh. One day. One day.


"There's always a seed before there's a rose. The more that it rains, the more it will grow."