Let go and Move on

It's been a long time I didn't talk about the one who broke my heart the most and changed everything about me. He is once I called a soulmate. The only one I thought that would last. The only reason why I never believed in forever anymore. One thing about him is he knew all of my weaknesses. He knew that I love him that much.

I still remember how hard I cried everyday waiting for him. Thinking that he'll actually hold on to his promises of coming back to me. I've waited so painfully for him. Thought that all the waiting will all come to an end and everything will be like the way it was before. Before everything was all so messed up and broken.

I hated him. I hated every bit of him. I hated how I used to trust him so much. How I begged for that one last day with him. In front of his friends. How hurtful it is to see him so damn heartless. He never looked at me the same way that he did before. Everything changed so fast. I hated him so much that I put all the hatred on myself.

But I knew hating was never the solution. I learn. I learn to forget. I learn to let go. I learn to forgive. But I never really forgive him for breaking his promises. I never forgive what the whole family did to me. The mom and sister. Especially him. They literally ruined my life. The agony. I can never forget it either. He was the worst.

I learn to let go. The only way that I could find back who I am. I let go. I let go all the hatred and all the pain. Eventually, I moved on. He was never a pain to me anymore. I felt better day by day by just letting everything go. I let him go. Because I know it was the only way. I picked myself up everyday. I stop crying. I am stronger now.

There's no doubt that I have to thank him for giving me a chance to find someone better. Someone who wouldn't betray me like he did. Thanks to him I'm stronger now. I see what I can be without him. I was a better me. Thanks for changing me to who I am now. Thanks for reminding me how amazing I am before I met you. You gave me a chance to grow up.

Yes, I can never really forgive and forget. But I learn to let go and move on. I know I still have a long way to go. If there was ever a chance you are reading this I wish you luck,success and love :) I don't hate you anymore. I'm not drowning anymore. Thanks to you.