And Suddenly You're The Reason

"I'm afraid of what you'll see right now..." "And till you understand,I'll make sure to keep my distance. Say I love you when you're not listening...." "how long till we call this love?"

I'm in such a messed up situation right now. When I'm with him, everything feels so easy and happy. But he also makes me feel so confused and sigh. Maybe he's just being friendly to me. He doesn't find me anymore. We're not texting like we did last time. God knows how much I miss him. He's so impossible.

I know there's a million reason why he shouldn't pick me or even like me. If he really found one reason, I'll make sure to turn it more than a million. But now, I just can't do anything. Sometimes I wish he knows. I know he deserves better. Why do we like to hurt so much? Sometimes I feel like punching myself -__-

I only wanna make him smile when he's moody. I only wanna be with him. I wanna know what to do to cheer him up. I wanna be the one he shares everything with. That's how much I like him. That's how much I need him in my life. Or am I just thinking too much? Maybe we're not meant to be together. 

Maybe he's one of those who only stays in your heart but not in life. The thing about him is HE IS SO UNPREDICTABLE! Seriously? Why is he such a good actor. I just know that he's hiding something from me. I always have a feeling that he barely himself when he's talking to me. But I know he annoys the shit outta me.

Sometimes I feel so helpless around him. I can't describe him,seriously. Sigh.