I just like to hurt...

In which other that I could show you how much I want to be with you. I told everyone that I dumped you and I'm happy without you. But then you came and bring me back all the memories and reasons that I held on to you for so long. That one moment when I'm with you changed everything. That voice and that smile. You just got your hooks so deep in me. But I gotta be strong and realistic. Cause I know that moment can't last.

Distance relationship is so hard for me that I can't even stand it myself. Sometimes, I just have to cry it out cause I know that I miss you so much but I just can't do anything about it. I wanna be with him all the time. I want him to be my side all the time. Knowing that it's all so damn impossible, I get so damn upset. He got his own road to go and I have mine.

I just know he was something special even people say that I deserve better. People say I'm strong enough. But till when? Till when will I be that strong? He comes and he goes. Sometimes I'm just so messed up I don't know what to do. There's just something about him that other people don't understand. Something that I can't even understand.

Tell me what am I supposed to do cause I really don't know. I'm just so hurt right now.