In my life, people changes everyday. They change the way they look, the way they used to treat me. Some are good and some are bad. The point is here that people who came in my life,changes my life. Some of them are just passer by. Some of them leave some foot prints. Some of them leave good memories. Some of them even spread viruses. And most of all, some of them leave a deep scar or a tattoo in my life.
Depends on who I'm talking about. Depends on what kinda person they are to change me who am I now. I have to tell you. I've changed. To the worse or better, that's for me to judge. No one else. The kinda people like Elaine and Luke, they changed me to think of what's important for myself. Stop being to nice and start doing something for myself. I know both of them will always be with me thru this rollercoaster ride.
In some other cases, like Jason. He changed me too. To be more patient. My mom, she changes me the most. She showed me things that I don't see. She gave me a whole different view of how people are and how mean they could be and how strong I should be and firm I need to be. Dare to be different. My dad, he changed me too. He taught me compassion and treat people fair. He also changed me in a way now that I'm more stubborn and ego just like him.
One more person. I think he did changed me. I learned to wait. To take things slow. To just have fun talking to each other. He changed me in many ways even I just knew him for a few weeks. We bond so fast. Maybe too fast that we've stop talking. He changed my mind again and again. He changed my boring days. He changed the reason why I smile. Cause he is the reason I changed a lot now.
My days are brighter with him in it. I never felt so attached to someone since Soo Keen (my ex). I was patient. But some people are just plainly stupid and ruined everything or maybe it's just me. And again it changed me. Even if I take it slow, even if I did the right thing. Some people just ruin it in a blink of an eye. Now, I'm just as messed up as before.
When I finally thought someone could make me feel special again. With the attention and the way we could talk about everything and anything. That someone I know that he's not just a passer by. How I wish he knows that I miss him so much it hurts. I miss talking to him. I miss how it used to be. I miss when it was only me and you. How did it went so wrong? Even when I try to stay occupied, everything that I do reminds me of you.
"But remember the time I told you the way I felt?
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
