Missing him doesn't mean I want him back :)

Let me tell you something about me. You think that i'm so easy to read but i'm not. I'll probably show you some of me. So far only Elaine knows me well. It's annoying how she could predict me but i'm fine by it cause she's forever. My mind is like a never ending confusion ride. So is my damn heart.

Honestly, I do miss Jason and honestly I don't want him back. Missing him is just apart of moving on. Either way, i'm happier this way. I have Luke, Elaine and Isaac. What could go wrong? Okay bad question. The last time I said that I ended up messing things up. Lol bah. Life goes on whether you want it or not :)

The funny thing is when I was with Jason my mind was so quiet. Like seriously. Damn quiet. Never in my life it happened before. After he's gone, it was as noisy as before. Even worse, I think. Insomnia almost everyday. Well, I don't wanna admit to anyone directly. But yeah, I've been having insomnia for almost everyday since Jason's gone.

I'll always sing myself to sleep when my mind can't shut the eff up. Safe and Sound by Taylor Swift. Yup, my lullaby. Always worked when I sing it. The only song that shuts my mind and let me sleep. :)

"Just close your eyes. You'll be alright. Come morning light. You and I'll be safe and sound." Those few lines that comforts my mind :)