So hey. 3 weeks in NS only. He changed fast! Well in between the 3 weeks, I always had that feeling that he had changed. I try so hard not to like act out. But you know,he's someone I really care about. Seriously,he is my family. My family are changing and I think it's time for me to change too.
I'm freaking 18 now. It's already considered me an adult. Whether I'm ready or not,growing up won't wait for me. Yeah,he changed a lot. He won't admit it. I need to be independent now. I need to stop counting on him. He may be matured already. He might not need me anymore. So,I'll do the same thing.
I'll be strong. Like I'm not used to it. 2012 is my year to be someone I wanna be. Find who I am. What I want. Yeah,I'm gonna miss him. He's someone very special in my life. He's my lil bro. Someone who laughs at my stupidity and my nonsense. But he's not like that now. Sigh, Nothing stays forever.
Everything he said is true. Forever really don't exist. I remember he used to promise me that he won't leave his sis no matter what. He promised he won't do the same thing that happened to Elaine and her bro. But now,it's happening.
Maybe he won't miss me or need me anymore. But I will always miss him. Of course,I won't show it to him. When people ask me,I'll just say that I'm fine. Whatever it is, I'm ready to take the challenge and let him go. It's his choice whether to come back to me or not. It hurts to let go but I know I'll gain something in the end. Maybe something better :)
So life,stop being too harsh on me this year. I want to make this year,a year to remember^^
So life,stop being too harsh on me this year. I want to make this year,a year to remember^^
