I'm Being Just Me

Yeah,I know I can be totally stupid~ I mean,yeah~ I am stupid. It's OK. As long as I have my friends to be with. Come on! I have friends backstabbing me,people talking about me everywhere,always embarrassed myself in front of my crush... Actually,I hate that part the most. I think he thinks that I'm a freak or something...People keep teasing him about me liking him...

They don't mind but I totally mind! Duh! Well,everyone knows that me and him are totally impossible and we're whole different worlds~ I know we don't belong together and I did give up. But he pass by and smiled at me,I feel like my knees get really weak and I feel like in need of a bar or something to support me... Every single time he smiles,my heart totally skipped a beat.

I don't whether it's crush or just the way  he smile is just charming... Dang it! I try so hard not to think of him so much,yeah,uhuh~ it's "working" pretty well~ -.- sheesh... I am an attention freak! So what? At least I don't go around saying "Hey! I need your attention please!" Yeah, I don't do that~ Duh!

Well,I guess i have to forget him~ I can't see him smile anymore~ It's gonna hurt me more~ I like him :) but i think it's enough to be in a relationship~ Still phobia with the last one~ *shivers*