He's a jerk but he's not~ Hmmm.

I miss him but I hate him. I'm so confused. I see him everyday trying his best to avoid me. I mean, I called him once just to tell him about me and that T cause apparently he said that I can talk to him when I'm said. Ugh. Such a liar and he dares to call me a liar. Idiot. Wtblueberry fudge man! Sometimes I think that I should wait for him but sometimes I think I should just forget him. Which I want to but I don't want. See what I mean? I cant choose! and it's so damn frustrating. Ugh. I hate you but I miss you. Why can't I just let him go? Let the regrets outta my mind and just be the simple me.

I hate my life at home. My mom. Ugh. She's been saving all her anger specially for me. Nice right? The best gift I  can ever ask for. She just hate me somehow. I know I did so many things that disappoint her but haiz~ No one can understand what I need. I love her but seriously I hate her. She always treat my sis nicer than me. Her fave daughter. Cant help it. Cant blame anyone too. It is my fault but it's so hard to go thru this sickening life. Lucky I still got my friends and my dad ;) I can count on them.