I dont want to be alone :(

For some reason I just dont want to be alone. I just dont know why. Basicly, I can live without him,obviously. Dont even know why I was so dumb enough to say that I can't~ But there is just some part of me that I feel hat is not complete

Maybe I'm just thinking too much or yeah, I'm thinking too much. Lol. How much the pain caused me it's not a problem or is it? Hmm. I'm weird. Lol. That's just me ;) It doesn't really matters to me anyway whether he's really waiting for me or not.

I just don't have the heart or time to think of that he's promises and swears are true or not since he's giving me the cold shoulder. *Chills* Haiz. I moved on! But I just want somebody with me now~ Like a Jacob.

But I can't figure it out who is it. I know I have my friends and family, they make me feel alright but it's different when I'm alone. I am selfish. So what? I'm just a troubled girl and no one have to be the judge of my life.

I just wish I have that someone to make me feel better. I hope I'll find one soon but I don't think it's gonna be that soon XD so, whatever!