Dear
Jason,
I
can’t believe I’m really writing this to you. I know this is like so pathetic
but I guess this is why people called love. It’s crazy how I have never thought
of dating again. You just changed my mind instantly. Without any doubts you
just made my mind blank.
Every
time I talk to you or chat with you, I can’t think of anything else but to be
with you all the time. You make me feel different from others. I don’t know why
I insisted to believe these kinda things.
I
honestly don’t believe in fairytales. I don’t believe in happily ever afters.
To me, it’s just pure imagination and fairytales should just stay in books. But
still, I don’t know why. Somehow I just believed that we’re going to be
together for a long time.
I can’t lie that I wasn’t terrified of falling in love. To me it seems like
loving someone is too much risk. I couldn’t take anymore risk especially when
it comes to my past and my family and people to accept who I am.
More
than ever, I have never met someone so crazy and senseless as you are. I’m not
gonna lie. I did tried to leave you. Twice. Cause I can’t afford seeing you so
unhappy and keep getting into troubles because of me. I mean, is it really that
worth it?
Is it
really that worth it for you to do all of that just to be with me and make sure
that I’m happy? I don’t think so. I’m just a normal girl with a complicated
background who can’t accept who she is. Do you really wanna do all of that just
for me?
I
really, truly love you. No doubts about that. There’s just one point that I
have to let you go even if I really don’t want to. I have no choice darling. If
I had, I’d choose to stay. But even when I was so determined to finally leave
you, you just pulled me right back in. by just hearing your voice, it changes
me all over again. It reminded me why I held on for so long.
I
don’t understand why I can’t think right when you’re here. That smile. That
crazy face. Those cute eyes staring right into mine. When your arms are wrapped
comfortably around me. I wished for that moment to stay.
Even
if we’re far away, somehow in some insanely way I believed that we’re gonna be
together soon. I don’t know how to tell this to you but I’m really glad you
came. You make me feel so stupid and naïve again. You’re just perfectly
imperfect.
Love
you always,
Iman Farahin.
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