Sheesh!!

I don't know why, I'm just so unhappy with my life now. I've tried so hard to keep myself balance and don't blow up but it's not working at all. Everyone thinks that i'm outta my mind. Huh~ I wish there's a way that I could actually change myself totally.

People always judge people of what they've done last time. They don't take the effort to know that person properly and judge them then. I'm so sick of my life living with these kinda people. Why can't I have a mom who talks to me when i'm sad? I thought moms are supposed to take the pain away not adding it and making it worse.

Sometimes, I really feel like blaming my parents for divorcing and making mistakes and cause me like this. I know people who are much more worse but I don't care about them! I'm referring to myself! Not them! I want a perfect family where there is love,care,communication and attention. Is that so hard to ask?

That's the only reason I find relationships. So that I can get these kinda things I don't have! Ugh! But I can't blame them, I can't blame fate. I can't blame anyone but myself cause I'm a troubled teenager.