Mixed Up Feelings

First, I feel like I'm the girl who never gets the best ring. Maybe I won't. I feel like I'm always forgotten by all my friends. I help them but they don't seem to bother... What should I do? I feel so awful when these kinda feelings come at once.

This is not the only prob, I just realized that two of my most important person are leaving me and next year, I'm gonna be all alone. I know that it will happen sooner or later but why can't it just happen later? Give me time to spend time with them and have a happily ever after senior year.

But now, there's no such thing as happily ever after. I don't think that sentence even exist in this world. I miss them. I don't want them to go but I can't be selfish. Somehow,they are gonna leave me. It's just so hard to accept the fact.

Who am I gonna talk to or complain to? Who's gonna annoy me and irritate me with your sarcasm? Who's gonna give me their shoulder when I cry? Who's gonna tell me everything's gonna be fine? Who's gonna zap me back to reality? The last time I checked,no one did to me except you guys. This is like going thru my break up scene again and again. Losing them one by one.

Why is this always happen to me? Why life have to be so harsh? Every time that I have something that would make me feel better,there will be something or someone that will take it away from me and push me right back to the bottom. I just want to have a simple happy life. Is that too much to ask?